Tuesday, April 23, 2024

The End of the World

"Hi, how are you?" Harmonia asks the next customer in line as she starts to scan their items, a programmed customer service voice and smile on her face shining through the monotony of working retail. They replied with something unimportant and she responded with something equally unimportant. It was a day like any other, more or less... except for some weird recent events. The sky had been turning red for small periods, which was... obviously concerning. The government had written it off as some sort of scientific phenomenon but there was still a large group of conspiracy theorists who believed the world was about to end, the rapture impending. Harmonia wasn't one such theorist, which she would soon come to regret.

As the customer took their bag, they stopped momentarily and looked at the monitor that hung from the ceiling, the one that would show the customers being recorded as they came and went. The customer looked almost irritated.
"Um, miss, excuse me but is it supposed to-" The customer stopped speaking suddenly. Their left eye drifted off, looking at nothing. As Harmonia looked on, confused and more than a little concerned, something shiny and jagged tore through the customer's face, as though it was coming out of their skull.  Some sort of red crystal had shoved its way out of the customer's body, sticking out as the customer fell to the ground. In Harmonia's shock, she hardly noticed the color of the sky.

Instantly, more screams rang throughout the store, as the monitor up above turned to static and the screen began leaking thick black sludge. The speakers throughout the store began playing nonsense, words that made no sense, music that didn't work, and some sounding distorted or backward. Just a mishmash of random radio stations, it seemed. 

Terror flooded Harmonia's body as she stared at the dead woman, a scream forming and erupting from her throat as she stared at the corpse, shaking like a leaf. She looked around in horror, frozen, unsure what to do as she took out her phone. She had to call 911- she had to call the police- t-they had to be able to help, right???
As Harmonia clicked to call, someone immediately answered! Or, well, something.
"Harmonia? Hello? Are you coming home?" The voice on the other end was that of Harmonia's grandmother.
But it wasn't a perfect imitation. Monsters that mimic voices were common, Harmonia was taught that in grade school, but that knowledge didn't lessen the impact.

What the fuck. What The Fuck. Bile rose in her throat as she heard what sounded like her grandmother's voice, her hands shaking as she tried to hang up, looking around to make sure she could get a clear way to the exit. What was attacking?? Something... something was attacking, right?? Monsters??
As Harmonia stumbled over the woman's corpse (which seemed to have hardened into stone in the short time it'd been there), she managed to find her way to the exit of the store. 

Outside was cold. Unusually cold, even for October. Snow fell lightly from the oddly colored sky as chaos ran rampant in the large parking lot. Corpses with crystals sticking out of them, and what seemed to be large, jagged, geometric-looking humanoid creatures with multiple limbs and demonic-looking wings feeding on said corpses.

As Harmonia looked down, she saw half of her co-worker tugging on her pant leg. The girl had been split right down the middle, jagged green rocks poking out where there should be gore, appearing almost like teeth. The girl cried and sobbed, but she couldn't make out any words to ask Harmonia for help as she took her final breaths.

Tears fell from Harmonia's eyes and she covered her mouth, shaking like a leaf as she bent down, gently trying to close her coworker's eyes, her heart beating out of her chest. This... this couldn't be real- this had to be a dream, right?? What did she even do now?? She stumbled away, into the street, starting to run as fast as she could home.

Running through the streets, Harmonia could see cars swerving off the road or crashing into each other. The farther she ran, the fewer crystals she saw, and rather, she began seeing corpses covered in mushrooms or swarming with bugs. Oftentimes both, actually! But the bugs seemed to overtake whatever they were on. The sound of the buzzing was getting to Harmonia, mixed with the screams and other sounds, and the pressure of everything happening all at once. 
She hardly noticed her phone buzzing softly over all the noise.

Was... was the world really ending??? She had no idea... she just had to run. She kept running despite how terrifying it all was, adrenaline carrying her through the miles of terror and corpses. It hurt so fucking bad, her legs ached and her lungs begged her to stop but she couldn't. Not if she wanted to survive. Harmonia eventually made it to her suburb. Things looked... Yeah, yeah, okay, things looked relatively normal, thank god. 

She found time to slow down, just for a little, to catch her breath. The only immediate danger she noticed was some vines crawling up one of the buildings a little too quickly for her comfort, but she started walking down the road fast enough to get far away from it in little time. 
And, she finally noticed her phone buzzing.
Harmonia pulled her phone out of her pocket, her hands shaking as she tried to see what it was... hoping it was not another horrible thing for her to witness.

rainraincomeagain: hey
rainraincomeagain: Harmonia hey um
rainraincomeagain: How r u holding up? ^^"
rainraincomeagain: Ummmmm
rainraincomeagain: Ur taking a bit to respond and its scary
rainraincomeagain: Ok Im coming over
rainraincomeagain: You dont mind if I bring my emotional support ginger do you
rainraincomeagain: .........
rainraincomeagain: You didnt say no but if you end up saying no I can leave her in the car she knows how to defend herself
rainraincomeagain: I think
rainraincomeagain: Idk probably
rainraincomeagain: Anyways ill be there shortly xoxoxo

Fuck. Fuck this was fine- right??? Fuck. Shit shit shit- she started jogging again, trying to quickly get back to her house. How was Claire so calm?? She felt like she was going to piss her pants- holy fuck how was this real??

Upon returning to her house, Harmonia immediately noticed the hippie stoner van parked outside of it. It was painted a muted orange, with sunflower decals plastered on it. Harmonia could make out some cute cottagecore decorations on the dashboard and windshield, but she was quickly distracted by Claire coming out and waving at her.
"Heeeey!!! You had me worried sick!" Claire said, running up to Harmonia and hugging her.

Harmonia hugged back, her entire body trembling. "C-Claire- I don't... I don't know whats happening- s-so many people are dead-" She said through sobs, tears falling down her face as she clung to the other woman for dear life. "Oh god- oh god- we're all going to die-"

"Nooo we're not, a lot of other people will yeah, but I don't think we will!" Claire smiled, petting Harmonia gently as a crash is heard a few blocks away, followed by a loud bang. "Have you ever used a gun before?"

Harmonia shook her head. "N-no- C-Claire do you- do you know whats happening?" She asked, the tears still flowing. She was so early calm... it put Harmonia even more on edge... but she needed to trust her.

"I'm honestly unsure," Claire sighed, "But I have a vague idea?" She chuckled softly, leading Harmonia to the back of the van and opening it.

Inside the van was a young woman with ginger hair and glasses, wearing a hoodie and jeans. She coughed softly and looked Harmonia over.
"Wooooow, good catch, Claire," the girl chuckled, picking up a hunting rifle and stepping out of the van, handing the rifle to Claire.

"Be nice," Claire smiled gently, taking the rifle and looking up at Harmonia as the snow started falling heavier. "Should we head inside?"

"Not opposed to that!" The girl smiled, picking up a backpack and heading over to Harmonia's house, leaving Claire and Harmonia on the street together. She struggled for a moment with the doorknob before realizing it was locked, and gave up.

Harmonia blushed and shakily nodded. "I um... okay... yeah-" She walked up to her house, unlocking the door and letting them inside. Once they're inside, she quickly locked the door and went to the kitchen, pouring herself some water. 
"W-what do we do now? D-do we board up the house?" She asked, still shaking as Jello, a grey and white cat, walked up to her and rubbed on her leg, hungry for his dinner and unaware of the horrors outside.

"I don't think so, necessarily. Just close the curtains, lock the windows, lock the doors, turn off the lights... should be good! I don't think they'll be breaking into houses when there's plenty of food on the streets," Claire sighed, closing the curtains and locking the windows, "Oh. And that's Roxy. Ignore her she's young, 17, so like don't punch her."

Roxy had already made her way to the kitchen and had come back to the living room, eating cold cut salami. Harmonia instantly picked up on the cigarette smell coming from Roxy's clothes. "I'm awesome."

"R-right-" Harmonia was too frazzled to really process Roxy's rudeness, shaking as she drank her water, before picking up Jello, petting him softly. 
"So um... are you two sisters? And you said you had a vague idea, right?? What's that??"

Roxy laughed for a moment, sitting back in the recliner. "Yeah, sisters. Something like that. A little bit?" She giggled. "Trauma-bonded."

Claire sat herself down next to Harmonia with a sigh. "I grew up alongside her, kind of. As for the vague idea, are you at all religious? Or- Just to clarify, you were taught about monsters and stuff in school, right?"

"Right... I um..." Harmonia shook her head. "My grandma was Christian but I don't- I'm not really religious... but yeah I was taught about monsters- why??"

"They don't teach about demons and stuff in public schools, do they?" Claire sighed, reaching for Roxy's bag. Roxy tossed it to Claire, and she pulled out a small notebook and started flipping through it.

"D-demons? N-no I... I thought they didnt exist- are you saying they're real???" Harmonia asked, eyes wide as she petted Jello, trying to calm down despite how much she felt like screaming.

"Harmonia... There's a town in Massachusetts that was overtaken by a reality-warping clown monster. Are you really that surprised that demons exist?" Claire chuckled softly, handing Harmonia the notebook turned to a page about 'Violence Demons', with a little doodle showing off the anatomy of those weird rock monsters and vague information on them. 
They were made of minerals and appear as gargoyles and reptilian humanoids, with features closely resembling those found in depictions of dragons from varying cultures. As the layer they hail from implies, they were described as incredibly violent and dangerous.
At the bottom of the page, it says their current prince was named Abaddon, whatever that meant.

Harmonias hands shook as she stared at the page, reading it over. 
"I... I guess not I just.." She couldn't stop shaking, her heart was beating a thousand miles a minute, panic clear on her face. 
"I don't understand- why- why are they attacking now? What changed? What about the mushrooms and the bugs???" She asked, her voice wavering with her fear.

"Gluttony demons!" Roxy called out. "Didn't think they still existed, honestly."

"Mhm. As for why they're attacking now, I actually don't know." Claire shrugged. "It's definitely a little confusing."

"Oh, yeah, no definitely," Roxy smiled, glancing at Claire, "No clue whatsoever."
Roxy leaned forward in the recliner, folding her hands.
"We- I had a pal, a buddy, named Jessica a couple years back. People online called her a prophet or whatever because she was talking about the world ending sometime in the 2020s because the Mayan calendar was wrong or whatever, I dunno it was stupid and basically a stupid online doomsday cult. She'd talk about it constantly, and I was real close to her for one reason or another.."  Roxy looked down briefly, before glancing at Claire, who was watching her closely. "Anyways- You hear about the kid born in Nevada in 2004? The virgin birth? Her theory had to do with that kid, and..." 
Roxy looked up at Claire again. "Well. Looks like her theories were true." A smile cracked on Roxy's face as she looked to Harmonia. "Though, anyone close to her could've guessed as much, all things considered."

Harmonia shook her head again, trembling. "I don't- I thought that was disproven?? Are... are you saying that kid is the antichrist or some shit???" She asked, her tears drying up, the adrenaline rush finally dying down.

Roxy stifled a laugh, looking at Claire, who seems a little confused. 
"No, no, not the antichrist, but the second coming, kinda. Either way, we're being Book of Revelation'd. So... do with that what you will!~" Roxy smiled, leaning back in the recliner.

"Can't say I'm too enthused by this turn of events, honestly." Claire sighed. "Taking up drinking is very tempting right now."

"T-this cannot be happening- this can't be real- the world can't be fucking ending-" Harmonia stammered, standing up. "This isn't happening." She headed to the bathroom, her hands still shaking as she tried to get the thought of the corpses out of her head but... she couldn't. She took a shower and changed, getting the blood off her... which helped a little bit. Upon returning she stared at the girls in her living room, unsure what to do now.

Claire flicked through the TV channels, trying to see if any signals were uncorrupted, but there weren't any. Just a load of hellish nonsense clogging each channel. She sighed and turned off the TV before any goo could start pouring out of it.
"So... what should we do?"

"I... I don't know..." Harmonia said shakily. "What can we do??? Wait to die???"

"Well no that won't help," Claire tilted her head. "We can sit and wait, sure, but it won't get us very far at all."

"We could try seeking out Lucy," Roxy looks up from her phone and at Claire, "It's not ideal but she'd definitely know something."

The second those words left Roxy's mouth, Claire shot her a look. "If you wanna do that, go ahead, but I really don't want Harmonia anywhere near her." She seemed to be gripping the arm of the sofa kind of tight.

"W-who's Lucy? D-do you guys have family? We could focus on trying to find them?" Harmonia offered as Jello walked up to Claire, rubbing against her leg.

Claire and Roxy looked between each other for a moment.
"I don't think either of us have any family we'd like to see." Claire muttered.

Roxy got up out of the chair, picking up your bag. "Suit yourself! I'm off to see if Lucy can offer me some free advice, like she's Logan Paul and I'm that poor scared child in the song. Laterz." Roxy walked out the front door, taking care to make sure it's locked behind her.

Claire sighed. "Lucy is a dreamwalker we used to be acquainted with, a while ago. You know that church that opened up recently, in Biloxi? That's her doing." Claire picked up Jello, placing him on her lap and petting him. "She also runs that chatroom we're in, for the web art project."

"Fair enough..." Harmonia said softly, watching Roxy leave. "Is it... really best to let her go alone?" She asked, looking back to Claire.  "Oh... I see. Huh. Couldn't we just try and text her then?"

"She can handle herself.." Claire sighed. "We could, but the demons are probably in the internet as well by now. They got the TVs, the radios, I'm sure they can get in through WiFi as well. She's not stupid, she wouldn't divulge information where things like that can see."

"That makes sense I guess... can... can they hear through them??" Harmonia asked, looking down at her phone.

"Not unless the microphone is on." Claire smiled. "I wouldn't worry about it too much. They'll probably stop occupying regular waves like that in a few days."

"O-oh..." Harmonia paused for a moment. "What do you think they'll do now? What's their plan?"

"...Well. I don't know. I really do wish I could tell you." Claire shrugged, holding Harmonia's hand gently.

Harmonia sat down next to her, sighing and putting her head on her shoulder. 
"I hope Lucy knows something... then we can figure out where to go from here... right?"

"I hope so..." Claire held Harmonia gently, massaging her back softly with her pointly nails. "We'll just have to wait and see."

"Yeah... h-how long do we wait until we assume shes... shes um..." She didn't want to say it. She didn't want to admit how horrible the situation was.

"She can handle herself." Claire sighed reassuringly, holding Harmonia close. "Trust me."

"I will..." Harmonia whispered, closing her eyes. "I... I dont want to fall asleep... I think I'll see it all again..."

"You can sleep. I'll watch over you and protect you. I promise you'll have sweet dreams." Claire said calmly, brushing Harmonia's hair out of her face. "I'll be here when you wake up. I promise."

Harmonia smiled, curling up against her girlfriend. "Thank you... your words are so kind..."

"I hope that one day the universe treats you with the same kindness," Claire whispered. And as Harmonia fell asleep, both of Claire's promises were kept.





Thursday, April 18, 2024

August 25, 2021

TW: Suicidal ideation, nearly attempted suicide, discussion of depression


Harmonia's mind swam as she lay in bed, staring at the ceiling of the home that was once her grandmother's. It was the same ceiling, the same house, but it was empty. The cold was palpable, digging into her unstable mind, which had already begun to spiral. She had no one now... her grandma was all she had left. Her old friends from high school had moved away... but her? She could never leave... not when Iris's health was failing. Thoughts buzzed in her head like angry wasps, berating her for being so useless, for not going to college, for not saving her family, for driving everyone away. She felt numb as she got out of bed, her legs carrying her to the bathroom. Tears fell down her face as she stared at the medicine cabinet, the promise of relief in front of her. 
She didn't want to die... not really. She just wanted to stop hurting. She wanted it all to just stop- and there was no other way. Harmonia took a bottle, her hand shaking as she stared down at it.
Buzz, buzz.
The sound of her phone vibrating startled her from her thoughts. Harmonia shakily took her phone out of her pocket, opening it to see what it was. 
Claire had sent Harmonia a message. It was a meme, kind of dated, but it made Harmonia laugh. She had been seeing this girl on occasion, ever since she joined a chatroom for some weird internet art project and learned they lived close to one another. It was one of the good things in Harmonia's life. Something that kept her distracted from everything else.

rainraincomeagain: Harmonia look at this meme I found
rainraincomeagain: Look it's really funny XD
rainraincomeagain: [A simple meme, one that says "Me in my profile pic vs me in the zoom meeting", one side showing an elegant looking cartoon fox and the other showing a disheveled looking taxidermy fox.]

It made Harmonia laugh a little, seeing the girl on the other side of the screen send her a meme that wasn't relevant anymore. Seeing such innocence in a moment like this made her smile. She looked at the bottle, before putting it down and taking a seat on the closed toilet. She put a hand up to her eyes, wiping her tears and taking a deep breath. 

harmonia: It's cute... um.. could I talk to you about something sort of serious?

Her hands shook as she wiped her eyes again, terrified for the woman's response. What if she said no? What if she didn't want to talk to her ever again?

rainraincomeagain: Ya whats up :p
harmonia: I um... I've just... been going through stuff I guess... I just need someone to talk to... Sorry if this is weird.
rainraincomeagain: Nono its not weird!!
rainraincomeagain: Pls feel free to tell me anything <3 What kind of stuff r u going thru?
harmonia: So I was raised by my grandma and she... she died really recently. It's just... I don't have anyone and I don't know what to do. Every day I can barely get myself out of bed... let alone get myself to eat or do much. I just want the pain to stop.

Claire takes a moment to reply. This... definitely doesn't help Harmonia's mood at all. But when she does reply...

rainraincomeagain: Hunny Im so sorry :( Loss like that can b so rough I understand a lot... Im sure shes at peace now and is happy..
rainraincomeagain: Its such a hard thing to deal with and im sorry u have to go thru it :(
rainraincomeagain: Is there anyway I can help?? R u ok to go out today? We can get u something special from that cafe u like and u can talk to me for hours

Harmonia chews on the inside of her lip, smiling as she reads Claire's kind words, wiping her eyes again. 

harmonia: I'd like that a lot... I really hope she's at peace. She believed in heaven and stuff... so hopefully that means she got there. But I'd really like to meet up,, I'm just going to get dressed. Thank you, really, this has helped a lot already,,
rainraincomeagain: We all find peace eventually. And if she hasnt she will soon i promise <3
rainraincomeagain: Ill be over in 5 doll ok see u then xoxo
harmonia: See you in a minute!

Harmonia's face flushed red as she set her phone down, glancing at the pill bottle and putting it away before splashing her face with some water. She took a deep breath, before changing into some clean clothes and grabbing herself a drink of water, waiting for that telltale knock.
After a few minutes, she heard what she was waiting for, a perfect three, knock, knock, knock, each one on a different part of the door in a small triangle.

Harmonia went to the door and quickly opened it. She smiled at Claire, wiping her eyes. "Sorry, I'm such a mess..."

Claire was well dressed as usual, wearing a pastel yellow sundress and a honeycomb-patterned cardigan. She has on a headband with a yellow azalea poking out as well, and she was holding out a pink azalea to Harmonia.
"Shush, you look beautiful." Her deep red lips opened into a smile, her sharp canines seeming to sparkle in the sunlight, as with her big, beady red eyes. 

Harmonia blushed, taking the azalea and tucking it behind her ear. She looked pretty plain, only wearing a sweatshirt and leggings, her pale skin standing out against her long black hair. Her eyes were brown, bags etched under them from various sleepless nights. 
"Thank you... you look amazing... I mean- you always do,,"

Claire ruffled Harmonia's hair gently, running her fingers through it. "You're so kind, Harmonia." She smiles softly, closing her eyes. "Well, ready to go?"

Harmonia blushed again, nodding. "Y-yeah,, thank you, Claire,," She said softly, melting into the gentle touch, gently taking the other woman's hand.

"Anytime! It's always good to get out of the house." Claire leaned into Harmonia gently as the two walked down the street, headed towards the nearby cafe.

Harmonia leaned against Claire a bit as well, smiling softly as the birds chirped in the warm August air. "So um- how've you been?" 

"I've been okay! Been decorating around the house a little more and collecting more things. I'm like a little crow, I love my trinkets and little things."  Claire chirped.

"I also like collecting trinkets...." Harmonia said with a smile. "You'll have to give me a trinket tour, I'd love to see everything you've collected!"

"I have a lot of stuff from over the years. I need more stuff and things. I go thrifting sometimes." Claire sighed warmly. "I'll give you a tour someday."

Harmonia nodded. "I'd like that a lot,, I love thrifting... we should go together sometime," She said with that bright smile, putting her head against Claires.
"We should, I'd like that." 

They arrived at the cafe and walked inside. It was homey with walls made of brick and large windows that the sunlight fed into. Potted plants decorated the doorway, and some hydroponic plants framed on the wall. Indie music played from the speakers, and the general vibe of the cafĂ© was very warm and friendly. 

Harmonia ordered herself a croissant and a cup of coffee, taking a seat at a table that was against one of the windows. "So- how's work been?"

"It's been a little slow lately, but I prefer that, honestly." Claire smiled, holding the large hot chocolate she ordered and taking a sip. She had been working at a local bookstore for a bit, not too far from the cafe. "How's work been for you?"

Harmonia shrugged a bit, blowing on her coffee to cool it down before taking a hesitant sip.  "It's been... retail... so you know..." She shrugged. "People haven't been especially horrible lately so, that's a win? I guess?"

"That's good! Any interesting customers?" Claire liked hearing about people who'd show up to stores wearing odd things or acting in strange ways. It always made her laugh.

Harmonia nodded, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear. "Yeah, actually- this really strange woman came in... her demeanor was just... weird? Like I try not to judge people but her movements were sort of... doll-like? And she smelled really sweet... kept calling me nicknames- but she was really pretty..." She sighed. "She was buying enough food to feed like- god, I don't even know... it was just a lot."

Claire bit her lip gently. "That is weird, yeah." She shrugged and took another sip of her hot chocolate. "Some people are just kind of like that, though. I think I've met a few people like that. Heavy perfume, acting a little weird."

"Yeah... I'm sure it's nothing really... just someone with different tastes." Harmonia shrugged a bit. "I try not to judge too much... you never know what someone's going through..."

"Mhm!" Claire smiled. "It is fun to hear about them, though!" She booped Harmonia's nose gently with a soft chirp.

Harmonia giggled, reaching over and booping her nose as well. "You're adorable..." She said softly, tilting her head.

"Aww, you're more adorabler!!!" Claire closed her eyes and leaned forwards, before opening them again. Her eyes were, as said prior, big and beady. Definitely proving Harmonia's adorable comment right. "I'm glad I was able to cheer you up."

Harmonia giggled, leaning her head on her hand. "Thank you for cheering me up,," She said softly, echoing Claire's statement. "I might talk to my doctor about trying antidepressants... could help?" She said with a shrug.

"That might be a good idea! Be careful with pills, though. Stuff like that can get dangerous quick..." Claire sighed, sipping her drink, not knowing what Harmonia had just experienced before they came here.

Harmonia tensed at that, her hand shaking. "Y-yeah..." She said softly, her voice barely a whisper. There was a pause before she spoke again. "I um... I kind of want a cat..."
Claire put a hand on Harmonia's. Claire's skin was oddly soft, oddly cold. "Harmonia. You're a lesbian, I know you want a cat." She giggled softly, her black lips curling into a wide smile as she blushed.
Harmonia blushed as well, taking Claire's hand. She giggled a little at that, tilting her head. "What if we went to get a cat right now?"

"That sounds like fun." Claire leaned forward, lifting Harmonia's hand and kissing it gently. "Shall we be off, then?"

Harmonia nodded, smiling. "Sounds good to me,"

Tuesday, April 16, 2024

A Human Life

I guess I should start from the beginning, right? 
Well- your grandparents are Brian Thompson and Heather Reeds. You had an aunt- well... have. Her name was Calliope Reeds, and she was two when I was born. Your grandparents were never married but loved each other dearly. It seemed like everything would be okay until one fateful day, where your grandpa swerved off the highway. My sister didn't survive. 
Your grandpa left, thinking it would be safer for the rest of us, and your grandma fell into addiction. I was left to my grandmother, your great grandmother, to be raised by her. She was the best caregiver I could ask for. She was always there for me, even when she was dealing with her own grief. I'm sure she'll be there for you like she was for me. 
We didn't have much, but we had each other. My mom visited from time to time but she never really saw me for who I was... just the daughter she lost. 
My grandma died in November of 2020. I was barely 18, and it hit me hard. Everything got worse before it eventually got better, and by the time the sky went red, I had been doing better. I suppose that's what I should focus on next... Get this story moving along in a way.

Thursday, April 4, 2024

For My Daughter

Hi! Um... I'm going to be honest, I'm not really sure how to start this. I guess introducing myself? I've rewritten this introduction at least ten times by now... but um. 

I'm Harmonia, your mom. Fuck, that feels weird to say... um... I made this just in case something happens to me- in case you don't get to know me... I don't really know what we'll name you- if you'll be a girl or a boy... but know this, no matter what happens, I love you. 

I'm sorry if this is disjointed, my thoughts are everywhere but I want to write this for you. A memoir of sorts, telling you about my life, about your family, about well... everything. Today is April 4, 2024. You're only a month along... and I love you already. 

I'm not sure what you'll call us- if you'll have different names for me and your other mom... probably. That would make sense I think... Honestly, if someone had told me a couple years ago that I'd be where I am now, I would've called them crazy.

I should mention that I'm not writing this alone. This is mostly for you, my love, but I suppose this can also serve as a sort of historical document? Detailing the apocalypse and stuff... The Playwright is going to be helping, writing down events exactly as they happened, since my memory isn't the most reliable. 

You're going to be the first of your kind, my little jellybean. I'm not sure if that nickname will stick but... I hope you don't mind it. You'll be the first child ever born in Metamorphosis. I hope you won't be lonely... I'll try my best to make sure you have friends your age. I wonder if you'll be a moth like me... and what moth you'll be. 

Well, I'm going to sign off for the moment. I love you, jellybean.
My Love

Interlude

In the dorm room that Claire and Harmonia had chosen as their own , Claire was frantically trying to decorate as best she could. The emptine...